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"...and the stuff that I write/is even tougher than dykes"--Nas
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19th-Jul-2006 09:56 am - exit stage left
steph chillin
well my exit from the internet is almost complete. don't look for anything new here. i'm over at vox now. (http://studpoet.vox.com/) i've also taken down my public site at studpoet.com

9th-May-2006 02:55 pm - let's put this out there
steph chillin
okay so i know most people hate kevin federline. yeah he seems to be a gold digger. he seems to be setting up a damn good palimony suit with all the damn kids he's poppin out. but i have to say...

what makes his hip hop any worse than the bullshiz thats out there now?

is it because we just hate on him? i mean he sounds like 97% of the rappers out there now. the beat for his americas most wanted sounds like the same type of beats that are out there. i mean sure i wanted to slap elliot wilson silly when he had him all up in XXL. but lets be honest what makes k-fed any worse that most of the rappers that are making money right now?

i'm not saying that i think he should be rapping. i don't. i really think he should be getting a job and forcing his wife to stop living out her trailer trash dreams and get back to entertaining and not looking like she crawled up outta the backwoods. but let's be honest...if we're mad at k-fed and we think his music is shiz. then shouldn't we lift the standard of hip hop just a lil higher and get rid of some of the major players out there right now?

think about it.
20th-Apr-2006 02:22 pm - HAPPY FOUR TWENTY DAY!!
steph chillin


apparently today is the day for all mary ja wanna users to celebrate their love for the grandest weed ever created!

Check out the links:




so today (4/20) at 4:20 you are supposed to light it up and just kick it...
11th-Apr-2006 02:25 pm - the new shiz...
steph chillin
theres a poet lurking in there somewhere
she hid from me for months and she keeps asking to come out
but i supress her and bind her wrists
i gag her with my stress and whisper in her ear
“i promise this won’t hurt much”
i leave her in the corner of the recesses of my mind
while i try to live without her
but shes like Houdini
always escaping
she creeps up from behind and encircles
my mental with an embrace so tender it almost makes me falter
that poet makes me wanna do dirty things
makes me want to laugh and smile and write and be easy
she promises something that i never think i can have
telling me that i can just fill her up with my inkwell
i can tap her ass with my keyboard and if i stroke hard enough
i can help her reach the pinnacle of orgiastic verbatim.
she spits lovely tasty characterizations in my ear
she speaks with a languishing breath of sentimentality
for my long lost desire to penetrate her womb of creativity.
theres that poet lurking in there somewhere
slinking forward in her latex catsuit
just eagerly waiting for me to turn my back so she can turn me on
when i’m not looking
so she can start up my mental wordjones
i’ve resisted her for too long
guarding myself against the feeling of abandon...freedom
she lays herself in front of me yoked up
open like jesus on a spreader bar shes wide for me
anxious for the slip of my linguistics
she coerces me with innocent images of ladies in white teddys and mary janes
she slips a blunted haze into my cerebrum
and Hennessey on my tongue so i can make new poems...
5th-Apr-2006 04:01 pm - okay so maybe i do have some skills
steph chillin
from my book of rhymes...dug out of the dirty chests. i think i posted this on my regular webpage awile back but i found this and thought...whoa what was i smokin?! lol

i got a little story to tell
it goes like this
i believe you know it well
so called “str8” females tend to love bad girls
kinda like their hetero counterparts
they can’t help it
so if you act like an ass
they tend to come back
ask the studpoet if she got noluv4hoez
and i’ll tell you only if they
can bend over and touch their toes
i can’t keep my libido under control
so don’t leave your girl alone
cause i’ll do a biggie move
slide up behind your back
like Luda i’mma spit the truth
cause i’m too grown for game
invite her to my crib so we can shake the sack
then send her back home
with my name tattooed on her ass
or you’ll see sdc tatted on her titties
have her blowing up my cell while you’re at work
i chuckle when i see you together
remembering she said that my tongue game
drove her berserk
cause believe me i’m an expert
got my PhD in cunnilinguistics
i got your girl twisted
when i strapped up i had her going ballistic
she said you couldn’t stay hard
and she insisted she really wanted to be fisted
its true back in the day i was just playing
just like you my understanding of pussy was limited
yeah i thought just like you my understanding
was unlimited
but unlike you i stepped my sex game up
so when your girl leaves my bed
she walks like she been riding horses without stirrups
got her smoking blunts
and giving dome on latex dicks
confessing she loves the way
i keep her learning new tricks
i’m slick and i give her back to you so she can stay slick
cause i prefer for you to lace my chicks
no need to worry i won’t make her switch
she’s just a pinch hitter when i want to cum real quick.
6th-Mar-2006 02:45 pm - test day
steph chillin
so today is my midterm in my american popular culture class and i'm a tad bit nervous. not really cause i don't think i can do it but i've kinda reverted back to my old undergrad self not really studying too hard and letting the chips fall where they may. sure i studied a bit on sunday making sure that i wrote a couple of pages of notes and i'm half heartedly studying today. this tells me that i might not be ready for graduate school. you can't go in half hearted. anyway this was just a brief note. gotta get back to attempting to study.
17th-Jan-2006 09:22 am - hmmm
steph chillin
You Should Be A Cancer

What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous

What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand

In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection

In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support

Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure

Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood

You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese
14th-Dec-2005 09:05 am - yeah that makes sense
steph chillin
You scored as Sydney. You are Sydney! You know that most people are too foolish to make the world a better place, so you're not looking for a better tomorrow -- you're looking for some new clothes and a little respect in the academic world. You can be self-important, so be sure to hug your girlfriend and thank her for putting up with you.

Which Dyke to Watch Out For Are You?
created with QuizFarm.com

Yeah c'mere sistahousidah you definitely need to get a hug for putting up with me. heh!
12th-Dec-2005 10:28 am - LAS VEGAS BABY!
steph chillin
Two more weeks until my sweetie and i take an actual vacation. A few weeks ago i told some colleagues about my sweetie and i taking our very first real vacation together. they asked how long we'd been together and i said, "five years." they practically fell out of their seats. they were surprised that it'd taken us this long to take a vacation together. i explained that in the time we've been together we've both been broke college students and then just broke.

but now we've been able to swing it and i couldn't be more excited about it!

this will be the first time that we're going somewhere strictly for fun. no relatives getting on our nerves and no commitments to anything but pure hedonistic joy!

in general we have fun no matter where we are or what we do. spending time together is never boring for us but when i went to vegas recently for a conference i knew that i wanted to bring my schmoosh back just for the fun of it. of course it makes it all the sweeter that a) its her birthday the day after we arrive and b) moni and nakachi will be on hand for the fun and excitement.

i am the type of person who wants to give my schmoosh the world. she has given me so much that often i feel like i don't return the favor quite so much. so when we fell into a tad bit of money i strongly encouraged her that we needed to splurge on the trip. overall it wasn't that expensive two roundtrip tickets to vegas plus hotel that ended up being around $1000 but we'd never really had that big of a purchase just strictly for fun. part of my encouragement to her was that she NEVER does anything fun on her birthday. she usually gets screwed out of all the fun of having a birthday because she's born right after christmas and right before new years. folks are either broke or thrifty. so a birthday in Vegas is the perfect thing to eliminate all that history.

for the past few days at work i've been surfing Vegas.com to find all the fun & touristy stuff that we'll do in our four days there. i really want to see Avenue Q but the tickets are hella expensive so i'll have to find out how i can get cheap tickets for it. but there's some good places to eat that i want to take her too. and then of course we have to just check out every hotel! and of course since i'm a fan of The Girls Next Door we have to go to Madame Tussauds Interactive Wax Attraction!

But of course, we'll get to see "the other side" of Vegas with moni, nakachi and crew. i came to realize after only a few days that Vegas is definitely a different place away from the strip!

overall, i find myself getting really excited. mostly because it'll be a great opportunity for my schmoosh and i to travel together but also i need a fucking vacation from my job---for reasons that can't be posted out in the open.

so Vegas in two weeks HERE WE COME!!!
11th-Dec-2005 10:23 am - mostly gay...heh.
steph chillin
Mostly Gay
You scored -32 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)
You are mainly homosexual, but you have a few heterosexual qualities. You much prefer the same sex, but you have a mild interest in the opposite sex. While you would jump at the opportunity to screw someone of the same sex, you might be up for experimenting with members of the opposite sex if given the opportunity. If you are sexually inexperienced, you could shift on the spectrum at a later time depending on whether you have sexual encounters with the opposite sex and whether or not you like those encounters.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 5% on Orientation
Link: The Sexuality Spectrum Test written by tall_man_54 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

To be honest I don't think that the answer to this test takes into account that I, like most homosexual women (particularly those around my age and older), have had sexual experiences with men either in a move to conceal our homosexuality or because it was "expected". So if you honestly answer the questions provided you'd find that you wouldn't score completely gay on the scale. But the test was funny. Heh.
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